I typically spend more time making fun of Lou Holtz than I do listening to what he has to say, but last night during the halftime of the A&M vs T.U. game (we never should have been in that game, the Ag's played an amazing game)I half listened to his "Thoughts with Dr. Lou" segment. I could only catch a little of what he was saying, it was a bit of a chaotic environment, but as best I could tell he was talking to a group of high school students who were either in a bad situation or have faced a tragedy of some kind. I really wish I could have listened to the whole thing because he gave his thoughts on the way to transcend what has happened and truly live a full life. He gave 5 steps, or things to do, in order to live a more full life. The two I remember were to have dreams and turn them into goals. Its something anyone who has ever heard a pep talk or gone to a college orientation has heard a thousand times, but, a little unbelievably, its something I dont think Ive thought about in a while. What really struck me was that we hear a lot about having dreams, and we hear about setting goals, but I dont know how often we hear about literally making our dreams our goals. When I started to think about it, I know Ive always had dreams and Ive always set goals, but I always considered dreams to just be pleasant thoughts, and goals to be the more "practical" list of things that I better try to accomplish. I think thats maybe the reason Lou was saying these things to these students, because I think a lot of them probably think the way I did about goals and dreams. In essence I separated the two into what was real and possible, and what was fantasy and never possible. The problem there is that what is "real and possible" is totally shaped by our perception of ourselves and our reality. For my whole life up until 8 months ago, running a marathon, or losing 100 pounds would have fallen easily into the fantasy dreams category. Now its right within my grasp. The destination hasnt changed, its still every bit as monumental as it ever was, but what did change was my perception of what is possible. There is nothing wrong with being realistic and self aware, but I think the sad part about limiting our dreams to "realistic" pursuits is what it says about our perspective on life and the confidence we have in ourselves.
So, Im going to re-evaluate my dreams and goals, and this time, Im not going to be affraid to combine those two categories. Self awareness is good, reality is good, but believing that you can turn even the biggest dreams into reality is way better.
Dreams/goals:
-Run a marathon (fingers, toes, arms and legs crossed, its coming)
-Be a runner for as long as my body will allow me to be.
-Lose 100 pounds and maintain a healthy lifestyle (6 pounds away, and Im never looking back)
-Complete the Kona Ironman race in Kona, Hawaii
-Become a Certified Personal Trainer
-Have a loving marriage
-Become a father
-Travel to all 7 continents
-Visit all 50 states
-Have a short story published
-Own my dream house (which mostly means that its a place where my friends and family, and even some day my kids WANT to be)
Friday, November 27, 2009
Monday, November 16, 2009
San Antonio Rock N Roll 1/2 Marathon 11/15/09
Theres more from this race that I have to talk about that can be put in one post, so Ill probably write more than one. For this one Ill concentrate on the race itself, how it went and how we did. What I learned and thought about during this race really needs its own seperate post.
Like almost every race Ive run, this one was full of firsts. Although I have run a race at this distance once already, this was my first time running a half marathon as a part of a larger full marathon. The one 1/2 marathon Ive done shut down a piece of one major road to make a large loop, this marathon shut down the better part of the entire downtown San Antonio area. It was also the first time I have ever run with that many people, over 30,000. Another first for me was running a race of this distance with my sister, who was running her longest distance ever. It was so cool to be able to experience this with her in so many ways. She has been such an inspiration and cheerleader as Ive gone on this running and weight loss journey, that it was really special to get to do something this monumental together. It was also very cool because it was the first time that we had run a race together as equals. In the past, Jill was the much more in shape, much more experienced runner, and she was always tasked with pulling me along with her. This time, we were both on equal footing and were able to encourage each other equally, which made it so cool. This was also a big culmination for my running partner, Anne. We started running together in the middle of the summer, literally on pure chance one morning on a long run. The head of our training group said, "find someone who runs your pace and just stick with them," Anne just happened to be running next to me at that moment and said "how about you?" and weve been running roughly 5 days a week together ever since. This race was Anne's goal, and she killed it.
Sunday morning started EARLY. Up at 4:30 to head down to the fruit and juice bar that our hotel was setting up early for the runners. I figured I would get there and be the only one, but there were close to a dozen other people up and stocking up on bananas and bagels, and anything else that looked good. If Ive learned anything about runners, they like their freebies. Jill woke up soon after and we snacked on our peanut butter toast and bananas as we both hoped for our "natural processes" to kick in so that we would have that out of the way before the race. Im pretty sure we were both succesful, but I digress. Being truly our father's children, we had laid everything out the night before and getting ready for the race was a short process. We planned to meet Anne at 5:30 to try and get on the shuttle to the start, but if it was too packed, Anne's fiance, Jeff, was on call to drive us as close as he could to the start. Luckily the shuttle was running extremely smoothe and we got on in plenty of time with no trouble. Its really funny to watch people who are about to endure the kind of punishment a half or especially a full marathon is going to put on them. Everyone was mostly calm, but with an eager anticipation that was noticeable on pretty much everyone.
As soon as we arrived at the starting village, port-a-potty fest 2009 began for both Jill and Anne. Jill, bless her heart, has the bladder of someone who has had two babies within a year and a half of each other, and Anne was somehow born without a human bladder, so the port-a-potty situation was of prime importance to them both. Luckily there were plenty available, and lines were more or less manageable. The only potty stress came when Anne decided to use the bathroom for the 3rd time about 20 minutes before the race began and didnt make it back to our starting position until after the National Anthem. I think she just wanted to see if I would actually have a heart attack BEFORE the race started. She never made it to the bathroom that third time, but she made it back to us and all was well.
As we knew it would, it took about 1/2 an hour after the gun went of for us to cross the starting line, but when we did it was quite the exhilerating feeling. It was hot and humid and far from ideal, but we all felt like kings and queens as we crossed the starting line. It was electric, just running with all of those people is unlike any feeling in the world.
Its kind of hard to remember every detail from then on, so Ill hit some highlights:
-Around mile 6 we ran by a store of some kind that was loudly playing a recording of some Army or Marine cadets doing a call and response cadence. It definitely pumped us up and gave us all chills. You could literally hear their dogtags jingling on the recording, both an exciting and touching moment.
-There were lots of signs along the road from fans, but these were some of my favorites:
Pain is temporary, but pride is forever (we may even put that on a shirt)
Your feet hurt because youre kicking so much A$$
Finishing is your only damn option
You paid to run?
-My sister has this great quality that when she is running, or tired in general, and she sees anything that is the least bit touching, she bursts into tears, literally. She doesnt get a little teary or choked up, she has the full blown balling moment. It comes and goes very quickly, but she cant contain it. There were lots of shirts of people running for different causes, or in memory of someone or something, and every time we would pass one, Jill would burst into tears, and then she'd get a boost from it. Its really pretty cool.
-Anne has been suffering from some kind of knee pain for the last month or so, whenever we would run longer than 7 or 8 miles. We were both hopeful that the adreneline and the grandeur of the event would keep the pain at bay, but she wasnt so lucky. But let me just tell you, Anne is one tough cookie. I could tell about mile 9 that Anne was hurting (come to find out she started hurting at about mile 6) because she got very quiet and seemed a little more serious. What she didnt do was slow down or complain one bit. At one point I just said to her, "Anne, I know youre hurting, but you are doing amazing," and she was. At mile 10.5 when we split from the full marathoners, she even joked that she was just going to go ahead and run the 26.2, which is when I knew she was going to make it the whole way. I couldnt be more proud of her. I hate that she had to be in so much pain, but she's my hero for really gutting that out.
-As Ive already alluded to, crossing the finish line with my sister was really special. She just means the world to me, and I cant think of anyone I would have rather done this with. It is worth noting that we were both so delirious at the end of the race that we almost walked by all of the people handing out finishers medals, that would have been rather dissapointing :)
-Not exactly an enjoyable moment, but looking back its pretty funny. We had to walk probably in the neighborhood of 3/4 to one mile to our car after the race, and you would have thought that it was 3 90 year olds trying to walk down the street. We were walking slooooow, but we all said several times how we were giving it everything we had just to maintain a walking pace. In the future Ill remember, stretching is goood.
There is so much more that I want to write about, but again, Ill save it for another post. We all three finished in 2:35 minutes, almost on the nose. It was hot, it was painful, it was amazing. It sounds cheesy to say, but even though several thousand people finished before we did, I felt like the three of us were the big winners that day.
Like almost every race Ive run, this one was full of firsts. Although I have run a race at this distance once already, this was my first time running a half marathon as a part of a larger full marathon. The one 1/2 marathon Ive done shut down a piece of one major road to make a large loop, this marathon shut down the better part of the entire downtown San Antonio area. It was also the first time I have ever run with that many people, over 30,000. Another first for me was running a race of this distance with my sister, who was running her longest distance ever. It was so cool to be able to experience this with her in so many ways. She has been such an inspiration and cheerleader as Ive gone on this running and weight loss journey, that it was really special to get to do something this monumental together. It was also very cool because it was the first time that we had run a race together as equals. In the past, Jill was the much more in shape, much more experienced runner, and she was always tasked with pulling me along with her. This time, we were both on equal footing and were able to encourage each other equally, which made it so cool. This was also a big culmination for my running partner, Anne. We started running together in the middle of the summer, literally on pure chance one morning on a long run. The head of our training group said, "find someone who runs your pace and just stick with them," Anne just happened to be running next to me at that moment and said "how about you?" and weve been running roughly 5 days a week together ever since. This race was Anne's goal, and she killed it.
Sunday morning started EARLY. Up at 4:30 to head down to the fruit and juice bar that our hotel was setting up early for the runners. I figured I would get there and be the only one, but there were close to a dozen other people up and stocking up on bananas and bagels, and anything else that looked good. If Ive learned anything about runners, they like their freebies. Jill woke up soon after and we snacked on our peanut butter toast and bananas as we both hoped for our "natural processes" to kick in so that we would have that out of the way before the race. Im pretty sure we were both succesful, but I digress. Being truly our father's children, we had laid everything out the night before and getting ready for the race was a short process. We planned to meet Anne at 5:30 to try and get on the shuttle to the start, but if it was too packed, Anne's fiance, Jeff, was on call to drive us as close as he could to the start. Luckily the shuttle was running extremely smoothe and we got on in plenty of time with no trouble. Its really funny to watch people who are about to endure the kind of punishment a half or especially a full marathon is going to put on them. Everyone was mostly calm, but with an eager anticipation that was noticeable on pretty much everyone.
As soon as we arrived at the starting village, port-a-potty fest 2009 began for both Jill and Anne. Jill, bless her heart, has the bladder of someone who has had two babies within a year and a half of each other, and Anne was somehow born without a human bladder, so the port-a-potty situation was of prime importance to them both. Luckily there were plenty available, and lines were more or less manageable. The only potty stress came when Anne decided to use the bathroom for the 3rd time about 20 minutes before the race began and didnt make it back to our starting position until after the National Anthem. I think she just wanted to see if I would actually have a heart attack BEFORE the race started. She never made it to the bathroom that third time, but she made it back to us and all was well.
As we knew it would, it took about 1/2 an hour after the gun went of for us to cross the starting line, but when we did it was quite the exhilerating feeling. It was hot and humid and far from ideal, but we all felt like kings and queens as we crossed the starting line. It was electric, just running with all of those people is unlike any feeling in the world.
Its kind of hard to remember every detail from then on, so Ill hit some highlights:
-Around mile 6 we ran by a store of some kind that was loudly playing a recording of some Army or Marine cadets doing a call and response cadence. It definitely pumped us up and gave us all chills. You could literally hear their dogtags jingling on the recording, both an exciting and touching moment.
-There were lots of signs along the road from fans, but these were some of my favorites:
Pain is temporary, but pride is forever (we may even put that on a shirt)
Your feet hurt because youre kicking so much A$$
Finishing is your only damn option
You paid to run?
-My sister has this great quality that when she is running, or tired in general, and she sees anything that is the least bit touching, she bursts into tears, literally. She doesnt get a little teary or choked up, she has the full blown balling moment. It comes and goes very quickly, but she cant contain it. There were lots of shirts of people running for different causes, or in memory of someone or something, and every time we would pass one, Jill would burst into tears, and then she'd get a boost from it. Its really pretty cool.
-Anne has been suffering from some kind of knee pain for the last month or so, whenever we would run longer than 7 or 8 miles. We were both hopeful that the adreneline and the grandeur of the event would keep the pain at bay, but she wasnt so lucky. But let me just tell you, Anne is one tough cookie. I could tell about mile 9 that Anne was hurting (come to find out she started hurting at about mile 6) because she got very quiet and seemed a little more serious. What she didnt do was slow down or complain one bit. At one point I just said to her, "Anne, I know youre hurting, but you are doing amazing," and she was. At mile 10.5 when we split from the full marathoners, she even joked that she was just going to go ahead and run the 26.2, which is when I knew she was going to make it the whole way. I couldnt be more proud of her. I hate that she had to be in so much pain, but she's my hero for really gutting that out.
-As Ive already alluded to, crossing the finish line with my sister was really special. She just means the world to me, and I cant think of anyone I would have rather done this with. It is worth noting that we were both so delirious at the end of the race that we almost walked by all of the people handing out finishers medals, that would have been rather dissapointing :)
-Not exactly an enjoyable moment, but looking back its pretty funny. We had to walk probably in the neighborhood of 3/4 to one mile to our car after the race, and you would have thought that it was 3 90 year olds trying to walk down the street. We were walking slooooow, but we all said several times how we were giving it everything we had just to maintain a walking pace. In the future Ill remember, stretching is goood.
There is so much more that I want to write about, but again, Ill save it for another post. We all three finished in 2:35 minutes, almost on the nose. It was hot, it was painful, it was amazing. It sounds cheesy to say, but even though several thousand people finished before we did, I felt like the three of us were the big winners that day.
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Houston Half Marathon 10/25/09
This morning I ran my first half marathon, and it was a day of many 1sts. Not only was today my first half marathon, it was my first race of any kind other than a 5k. Generally people take some stepping stones, a 10k, a 12k but I missed the 10 for Texas race a couple weeks ago, so I went straight from 5k to half marathon. Its also probably a little strange that my first half marathon is also the longest distance Ive ever run; training, race or otherwise.
Preparation for this morning actually started a couple days ago. Ive been reading about the right way to carbo load, and if its even really worth it. There are lots of methods and suggestions for how to do it, but what I basically did was start eating a little more carbohydrate in my regular meals, rather than just piling on one full meal of tons of carbs. Other than maybe making my meals a little heavier than normal, this wasn't a difficult task. I woke up at 4:00 this morning, which is my usual long run time anyway so that I can eat breakfast and hope to give it time to make some natural courses before running time. I had everything laid out, so after getting dressed and eating some oatmeal, I grabbed my bag, a banana and a G2 and headed out for the race.
After a bit of a fiasco of parking even an hour before race time, I made my way over to the In Flight (my running club) tent. I walked around for a bit, said hello to some running friends from other clubs and basically let myself get appropriately nervous. With about 15 minutes to go before the start we took off on a little warm up jog. The weather was probably already in the 70's, much warmer than ideal, and it was frankly pretty humid, shocking, I know, for Houston. I probably said, and heard, ten times "why couldn't we have run this yesterday when it was 15 degrees cooler in the morning?"
After a little warm up it was time to take my place in the mob. My only goal time wise for this race was to finish in about two and a half hours. Most of the running calculations Ive been looking at were telling me a 5 hour marathon was within grasp so I was hoping for half of that. To break it down further I wanted to run it about an 11 minute per mile pace, figuring in my head that that would get me pretty close to 2:30. I lined up what I thought was about 1/2 way back, looking around to hopefully see people who looked like serious runners, but also weren't, as my sister calls it "too in it to win it" looking. I felt pretty comfortable with where I was until literally the gun went off and I looked to my left to see my friend Lisa just a few yards a way who is waaaaaay faster than I am. It doesn't really matter other than I didn't want to have to worry about getting in the way of runners who were a lot faster than me, because I know how frustrating that is. Luckily it wasn't ever an issue and the start when off really pretty smoothly, except for the group of about 10 walkers who decided to start at the front and get in EVERYBODY'S way. I like walkers fine, they don't bother me, but etiquette just says you should start further back.
Today's course was 3 loops of a little over 4 miles each. Its not ideal because frankly it gets a little boring, but it wasn't too bad. It was mostly dark for the majority of the first loop, so the second loop really almost felt new, but the third was brutal.
So, now for some things I did right, and some things I did wrong.
1. One thing I did right is that I didn't start too fast. Ive done it before and I frankly do it too often even on training runs. I get caught up in the excitement or just the idea of having a good run and I blow out half way through and the rest of the run is a struggle. I knew that at some point this distance was going to require a certain amount of "gut it out" running, but I was hoping to delay that feeling as long as possible. I'm lucky that I didn't really feel like I was gutting it out until about mile 9 or 10, and even then it wasn't even as painful as I was expecting. I was tired, I was hurting, but I "conserved" enough to be able to really run hard the last 2/10 of a mile, you know, so I looked good coming across the finish line :)
2. One thing I did wrong was say to myself "You know, I kind of like these hills, they break things up and keep it interesting." You just dont play with the universe like that. As I said this course was 3 loops. Each loop had 2 underpasses on each leg, meaning that I ran up and down 12 underpasses. On lap one and even two, they did kind of give a change of pace and I was feeling good enough that I made this assanine statement to myslef. On loop number 3, these hills were not my friend. The last one positively made me want to vomit blood on my driveway. (sorry, you have to listen to the radio station I listen to in order to get that reference, but dont worry, I dont really vomit blood.)
3. I somehow did a pretty good job eating and drinking on the course. With as warm as it was and the distance, it was important that I not only drink water, but also take some electrolytes, carbs etc. Im really not a fan of gatorade, especially while running because during a race its that hand mixed, over concentrated endurance formula junk that stays in your mouth for twelve hours and... well I dont like it, so I opt to bring little shot blocks with me, which are basically energy gells in gummy form. The only problem with these things is that they are sticky as all get out and so they are hard to get out of the baggy and when you do you better have some watter to wash them down or you will be chewing on them for days. On the last loop around mile 10 when I was feeling pretty tired, I figured Id take a cup of gatorade to hopefully get a little boost from it. I shouldnt have let me talk myself into that because of course, the guy handing off the gatorade spilled it all down my arm so I finished the race with the taste of that mess in my mouth and a sticky right arm and hand. Luckily I was sweating like a pig and it didnt stick around too badly.
Some of the funny things I heard on the course today:
- From a spectator sitting on the curb downtown, "Good job runners, yall look a lot better than the people that just ran by a few minutes ago, seriously!"
- From anothe runner on her third loop "How can these hills only go uphill, doesnt physics demand they go downhill at some point?"
- "GO WILL!!! MAN YOURE SKINNY!!!!" Thanks Anna. Ok, maybe thats a little self serving, but hey, I just ran 13.1 miles.
- "Youre almost there!" Said someone standing literally next to the 5 mile marker.
- A time/pace caller tried to tell me I was running at a 7:04 pace and got mad at me when I told him he was crazy if he thought I was running that fast.
All in all I had a really fun race, I came in unnoficially at 2:20:29 so I came in a little under my goal. I ran an average pace of 10:37 per mile which was a good bit faster than I expected. I realized about mile 6 or 7 that I was running that pace consistently and several times thought I had slowed down, but I actually ran it pretty consistently. My fastest mile split was 10:12 and slowest was 10:53. Other than those two, every one was right around 10:30. One of the coolest things was that I got my first piece of "hardware" today. Every race up to this point just gave a t-shirt. Today I got a medal and a running singlet. Cool bonus fact, they designed this medal to be a piece in a set. If I run this race three years in a row, the medals actually match up to form a bigger medal. Cool huh?
Preparation for this morning actually started a couple days ago. Ive been reading about the right way to carbo load, and if its even really worth it. There are lots of methods and suggestions for how to do it, but what I basically did was start eating a little more carbohydrate in my regular meals, rather than just piling on one full meal of tons of carbs. Other than maybe making my meals a little heavier than normal, this wasn't a difficult task. I woke up at 4:00 this morning, which is my usual long run time anyway so that I can eat breakfast and hope to give it time to make some natural courses before running time. I had everything laid out, so after getting dressed and eating some oatmeal, I grabbed my bag, a banana and a G2 and headed out for the race.
After a bit of a fiasco of parking even an hour before race time, I made my way over to the In Flight (my running club) tent. I walked around for a bit, said hello to some running friends from other clubs and basically let myself get appropriately nervous. With about 15 minutes to go before the start we took off on a little warm up jog. The weather was probably already in the 70's, much warmer than ideal, and it was frankly pretty humid, shocking, I know, for Houston. I probably said, and heard, ten times "why couldn't we have run this yesterday when it was 15 degrees cooler in the morning?"
After a little warm up it was time to take my place in the mob. My only goal time wise for this race was to finish in about two and a half hours. Most of the running calculations Ive been looking at were telling me a 5 hour marathon was within grasp so I was hoping for half of that. To break it down further I wanted to run it about an 11 minute per mile pace, figuring in my head that that would get me pretty close to 2:30. I lined up what I thought was about 1/2 way back, looking around to hopefully see people who looked like serious runners, but also weren't, as my sister calls it "too in it to win it" looking. I felt pretty comfortable with where I was until literally the gun went off and I looked to my left to see my friend Lisa just a few yards a way who is waaaaaay faster than I am. It doesn't really matter other than I didn't want to have to worry about getting in the way of runners who were a lot faster than me, because I know how frustrating that is. Luckily it wasn't ever an issue and the start when off really pretty smoothly, except for the group of about 10 walkers who decided to start at the front and get in EVERYBODY'S way. I like walkers fine, they don't bother me, but etiquette just says you should start further back.
Today's course was 3 loops of a little over 4 miles each. Its not ideal because frankly it gets a little boring, but it wasn't too bad. It was mostly dark for the majority of the first loop, so the second loop really almost felt new, but the third was brutal.
So, now for some things I did right, and some things I did wrong.
1. One thing I did right is that I didn't start too fast. Ive done it before and I frankly do it too often even on training runs. I get caught up in the excitement or just the idea of having a good run and I blow out half way through and the rest of the run is a struggle. I knew that at some point this distance was going to require a certain amount of "gut it out" running, but I was hoping to delay that feeling as long as possible. I'm lucky that I didn't really feel like I was gutting it out until about mile 9 or 10, and even then it wasn't even as painful as I was expecting. I was tired, I was hurting, but I "conserved" enough to be able to really run hard the last 2/10 of a mile, you know, so I looked good coming across the finish line :)
2. One thing I did wrong was say to myself "You know, I kind of like these hills, they break things up and keep it interesting." You just dont play with the universe like that. As I said this course was 3 loops. Each loop had 2 underpasses on each leg, meaning that I ran up and down 12 underpasses. On lap one and even two, they did kind of give a change of pace and I was feeling good enough that I made this assanine statement to myslef. On loop number 3, these hills were not my friend. The last one positively made me want to vomit blood on my driveway. (sorry, you have to listen to the radio station I listen to in order to get that reference, but dont worry, I dont really vomit blood.)
3. I somehow did a pretty good job eating and drinking on the course. With as warm as it was and the distance, it was important that I not only drink water, but also take some electrolytes, carbs etc. Im really not a fan of gatorade, especially while running because during a race its that hand mixed, over concentrated endurance formula junk that stays in your mouth for twelve hours and... well I dont like it, so I opt to bring little shot blocks with me, which are basically energy gells in gummy form. The only problem with these things is that they are sticky as all get out and so they are hard to get out of the baggy and when you do you better have some watter to wash them down or you will be chewing on them for days. On the last loop around mile 10 when I was feeling pretty tired, I figured Id take a cup of gatorade to hopefully get a little boost from it. I shouldnt have let me talk myself into that because of course, the guy handing off the gatorade spilled it all down my arm so I finished the race with the taste of that mess in my mouth and a sticky right arm and hand. Luckily I was sweating like a pig and it didnt stick around too badly.
Some of the funny things I heard on the course today:
- From a spectator sitting on the curb downtown, "Good job runners, yall look a lot better than the people that just ran by a few minutes ago, seriously!"
- From anothe runner on her third loop "How can these hills only go uphill, doesnt physics demand they go downhill at some point?"
- "GO WILL!!! MAN YOURE SKINNY!!!!" Thanks Anna. Ok, maybe thats a little self serving, but hey, I just ran 13.1 miles.
- "Youre almost there!" Said someone standing literally next to the 5 mile marker.
- A time/pace caller tried to tell me I was running at a 7:04 pace and got mad at me when I told him he was crazy if he thought I was running that fast.
All in all I had a really fun race, I came in unnoficially at 2:20:29 so I came in a little under my goal. I ran an average pace of 10:37 per mile which was a good bit faster than I expected. I realized about mile 6 or 7 that I was running that pace consistently and several times thought I had slowed down, but I actually ran it pretty consistently. My fastest mile split was 10:12 and slowest was 10:53. Other than those two, every one was right around 10:30. One of the coolest things was that I got my first piece of "hardware" today. Every race up to this point just gave a t-shirt. Today I got a medal and a running singlet. Cool bonus fact, they designed this medal to be a piece in a set. If I run this race three years in a row, the medals actually match up to form a bigger medal. Cool huh?
Friday, October 16, 2009
If I had been smarter
If I had thought about it, I would have kept a log of all of my marathon training for posterity's sake, but I haven't. However, as Ive learned, and keep learning, its never too late to start anything.
For more than one reason, September, and now October, have been my hardest training months. In September I really had to figure out how to train, eat and work at the same time. Being a teacher and having summers off makes summer training pretty easy, well at least the scheduling of it. In the past on those many, many days that I would finish school and just feel completely worn out, I would leave school, head to a drive through, gorge about 1500 calories, and take a nap until it was time for dinner, gorge another 1500, then come home, watch TV and go to sleep. Granted, this is even hard to type because its so embarrassing to admit, but in addition to being horrible for me it was SO EASY! Now, even when I do get worn out or have a bad day, I still have my running to do. Luckily, running is still fun for me, and I don't see it as just another thing I HAVE to do, its something that I get to do.
NOW, that being said, running is hard. I'm a running fanatic, I think about it, do it, research it, talk about it, etc. as much as anyone I know, but its still stinking hard. Ive written before about settling down and really feeling like a runner, well I realize that feeling like a runner actually entails a good amount of redundancy. I run over and over and over. Same places, same distances, same times, etc. When I first started I was breaching huge milestones, running races, confetti was plentiful, the world was fresh. Well I haven't raced since August, so for two solid months its been train and train and train. Luckily I have my first half marathon next week, and I'm hoping it will provide a much needed boost to my running. For me at least, I realize that racing regularly will be important. I'm not trying to win anything, but getting out there in the spirit of race day has a very specific effect, and its an effect that I need to keep going.
I am still hitting distance milestones. Every week in fact. My first ten miler was about 3 weeks ago and tomorrow I will run 12. My weekend long runs are still going excitingly well, but the week days are getting harder and harder. My running partner, Anne, has developed our new Mantra, "Crappy weekday runs make for great weekend runs."
I'm already having really crazy thoughts about what to do after my marathon is over. On one hand I guess that's good because it means that I'm not even considering if I finish the marathon, but when. As hard as all of this is, I'm confident in the fact that I am being consistent and working hard. Save an injury, which could always happen, I feel like Ill be ready for January. Houston half marathon next weekend, San Antonio half marathon in Nov. and then the big one on January 17th, It will be here before I know it.
For more than one reason, September, and now October, have been my hardest training months. In September I really had to figure out how to train, eat and work at the same time. Being a teacher and having summers off makes summer training pretty easy, well at least the scheduling of it. In the past on those many, many days that I would finish school and just feel completely worn out, I would leave school, head to a drive through, gorge about 1500 calories, and take a nap until it was time for dinner, gorge another 1500, then come home, watch TV and go to sleep. Granted, this is even hard to type because its so embarrassing to admit, but in addition to being horrible for me it was SO EASY! Now, even when I do get worn out or have a bad day, I still have my running to do. Luckily, running is still fun for me, and I don't see it as just another thing I HAVE to do, its something that I get to do.
NOW, that being said, running is hard. I'm a running fanatic, I think about it, do it, research it, talk about it, etc. as much as anyone I know, but its still stinking hard. Ive written before about settling down and really feeling like a runner, well I realize that feeling like a runner actually entails a good amount of redundancy. I run over and over and over. Same places, same distances, same times, etc. When I first started I was breaching huge milestones, running races, confetti was plentiful, the world was fresh. Well I haven't raced since August, so for two solid months its been train and train and train. Luckily I have my first half marathon next week, and I'm hoping it will provide a much needed boost to my running. For me at least, I realize that racing regularly will be important. I'm not trying to win anything, but getting out there in the spirit of race day has a very specific effect, and its an effect that I need to keep going.
I am still hitting distance milestones. Every week in fact. My first ten miler was about 3 weeks ago and tomorrow I will run 12. My weekend long runs are still going excitingly well, but the week days are getting harder and harder. My running partner, Anne, has developed our new Mantra, "Crappy weekday runs make for great weekend runs."
I'm already having really crazy thoughts about what to do after my marathon is over. On one hand I guess that's good because it means that I'm not even considering if I finish the marathon, but when. As hard as all of this is, I'm confident in the fact that I am being consistent and working hard. Save an injury, which could always happen, I feel like Ill be ready for January. Houston half marathon next weekend, San Antonio half marathon in Nov. and then the big one on January 17th, It will be here before I know it.
Sunday, September 13, 2009
Sundays
Im a bit hesitant to write about whats on my mind this morning. Ive almost written about it several times, but it always sounds really whiny in my mind before I sit down to write about it, but this morning I just cant get it out of my mind. In addition to feeling like Im whining, I also feel like what I have to write about flies in the face of what the "new Will" is all about. The new me is happy, energetic and confident, right? Well, while I am happy to admit that for the most part those things are fairly true, but then there are Sundays.
I look forward to weekends the way I would imagine 90% of people do, which is to say I live for the weekends. My weekends are slightly different now, in that there are very few long nights and sleeping late, and Im perfectly happy with that. I usually spend my Friday evenings relaxing, and generally eating a good, substantial dinner because what Im really looking forward to comes on Saturday mornings. Those are the days I go on my long training runs. I run 5 days a week, so just the running isnt as monumental as the fact that I get to run for a long distance without any real worry about getting ready for school or getting somewhere in a hurry. Plus I get to get around other people, talk about running or whatever and generally make an event out of it. The rest of the day is spent recovering and taking care of around the house stuff that I have become a professional at neglecting during the week. Then theres Sunday.
I hate Sundays, and Ive come to realize theres a lot of reasons why, but again, all of them seem to be so self serving and petty. I guess I should start by why I used to love Sunday mornings, and the truth is I guess I hate them now for the same exact reasons I used to love them. I used to always be able to count on Sunday as the day of rest, where you didnt have to worry about anything other than relaxing and just being. Now, when you are with someone (see I told you this was going to turn into a whine festival) you cant beat this type of open schedule day. You can spend the day talking, or not, spending time, or not, basically doing whatever you want, but Sunday was always a day that I felt was "together" day. I have two friends that got married over the summer who's "song" is Sunday Morning by Maroon 5. The song talks about exactly what Im saying, spending time doing nothing but being together on a Sunday, and thats all you will ever need.
I guess I hate these Sundays, because it reminds me that as well as I am doing, and all the changes I have made, I still have an empty spot. There are a million things I could do to occupy my time, and I do some of them, but how often is it that its the one thing you know you cant have that you want the most. I need to use these days as a reminder that I have to keep moving. I have to keep improving myself, I have to keep looking, I have to not be satisfied. I really do miss loving Sundays, maybe I will again.
I look forward to weekends the way I would imagine 90% of people do, which is to say I live for the weekends. My weekends are slightly different now, in that there are very few long nights and sleeping late, and Im perfectly happy with that. I usually spend my Friday evenings relaxing, and generally eating a good, substantial dinner because what Im really looking forward to comes on Saturday mornings. Those are the days I go on my long training runs. I run 5 days a week, so just the running isnt as monumental as the fact that I get to run for a long distance without any real worry about getting ready for school or getting somewhere in a hurry. Plus I get to get around other people, talk about running or whatever and generally make an event out of it. The rest of the day is spent recovering and taking care of around the house stuff that I have become a professional at neglecting during the week. Then theres Sunday.
I hate Sundays, and Ive come to realize theres a lot of reasons why, but again, all of them seem to be so self serving and petty. I guess I should start by why I used to love Sunday mornings, and the truth is I guess I hate them now for the same exact reasons I used to love them. I used to always be able to count on Sunday as the day of rest, where you didnt have to worry about anything other than relaxing and just being. Now, when you are with someone (see I told you this was going to turn into a whine festival) you cant beat this type of open schedule day. You can spend the day talking, or not, spending time, or not, basically doing whatever you want, but Sunday was always a day that I felt was "together" day. I have two friends that got married over the summer who's "song" is Sunday Morning by Maroon 5. The song talks about exactly what Im saying, spending time doing nothing but being together on a Sunday, and thats all you will ever need.
I guess I hate these Sundays, because it reminds me that as well as I am doing, and all the changes I have made, I still have an empty spot. There are a million things I could do to occupy my time, and I do some of them, but how often is it that its the one thing you know you cant have that you want the most. I need to use these days as a reminder that I have to keep moving. I have to keep improving myself, I have to keep looking, I have to not be satisfied. I really do miss loving Sundays, maybe I will again.
Sunday, August 30, 2009
An interesting week
I'm almost reluctant to write this now as I guess until I go on another run, I'm not totally sure if I'm out of the woods. I sustained what I guess you could call my first "real" running injury this week. Ultimately it looks to be nothing more than a slightly strained hamstring, but it was enough to stop a run early and have me miss my weekly long run. I'm also lightening my running load for tomorrow, choosing the not run option on my optional day and then hopefully back to normal on Wednesday.
The whole point of this is that since Thursday morning I have just been in a funk. Big picture, I missed literally one day of running, and it sent me into some sort of emotional tail spin. Most people would think that's crazy, and most of them would be right. I was even looking at myself saying "snap out of it, its just one run, its no biggy," but I couldn't shake being really bummed out about it. Ultimately what I realized is that what is bumming me out is that even though I have had such amazing success with my running and my weight loss (down 71 pounds as of this morning, woo hoo!) I'm still frightened of falling right back into who I used to be. Theres no question, I LOVE running and it would take some sort of major catastrophic event to ever derail that for me, but I feel like even though for the last 7 months I have been eating healthy and doing it all "right," that just that one little day off due to a sore hamstring could bring it all crumbling down around me. I'm still trying to figure out what I should take from this. Are the "changes" Ive made not really changes, but just me convincing myself to act a certain way? Or maybe I'm still just so new at this that I still get spooked to easy... OR maybe I'm just reading way too much into this (wouldn't that be odd) and I simply just got bummed because I was hurt and couldn't do something I really like to do.
I'm going to do what I think has to be the best thing for myself, I'm not going to think about this. I can take any little thing and blow it into something its not, so maybe that's what I need to work on more than my hamstring. Ive come so far, and still have a ways to go, but when I set out on this I was determined to be able to say and mean that life is good. Life wasn't that good this week, but today its looking better, I guess anytime you learn something it helps life look a little better.
The whole point of this is that since Thursday morning I have just been in a funk. Big picture, I missed literally one day of running, and it sent me into some sort of emotional tail spin. Most people would think that's crazy, and most of them would be right. I was even looking at myself saying "snap out of it, its just one run, its no biggy," but I couldn't shake being really bummed out about it. Ultimately what I realized is that what is bumming me out is that even though I have had such amazing success with my running and my weight loss (down 71 pounds as of this morning, woo hoo!) I'm still frightened of falling right back into who I used to be. Theres no question, I LOVE running and it would take some sort of major catastrophic event to ever derail that for me, but I feel like even though for the last 7 months I have been eating healthy and doing it all "right," that just that one little day off due to a sore hamstring could bring it all crumbling down around me. I'm still trying to figure out what I should take from this. Are the "changes" Ive made not really changes, but just me convincing myself to act a certain way? Or maybe I'm still just so new at this that I still get spooked to easy... OR maybe I'm just reading way too much into this (wouldn't that be odd) and I simply just got bummed because I was hurt and couldn't do something I really like to do.
I'm going to do what I think has to be the best thing for myself, I'm not going to think about this. I can take any little thing and blow it into something its not, so maybe that's what I need to work on more than my hamstring. Ive come so far, and still have a ways to go, but when I set out on this I was determined to be able to say and mean that life is good. Life wasn't that good this week, but today its looking better, I guess anytime you learn something it helps life look a little better.
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Still Interesting
I found this post which I wrote on a previous, and never really seen, blog and still found it interesting. What is most interesting is that even though I only wrote it about 3 months ago, I now view food TOTALLY differently than I did then, but this story still equally disturbs me.
Saturday, April 18, 2009
You can't make this stuff up...
Its very interesting to look at the way a person like me views food versus the way "normal" people look at food. Recently Ive come to realize that the way I eat, and I'm not talking about table manners, is very different than the way most people do. I know a lot of people who will look at a big fatty hamburger, or a monster burrito and be turned off by its unhealthy aspects. I usually relish in them. However that view has taken a big hit today (which I think is a good thing) when I came across a little special on the travel channel about best places in America to pig out. (Constantly watching television about food, no I'm not sick, really I'm not.)
Its called the Heart Attack Grill, just South of Phoenix. Its nothing new to desire to carve out a business niche in American counter-culture. Look no further than places like Hooters or Dick's Last Resort, all making money off of being a little contrary to the "status quo" and maybe a little politically incorrect. No harm, no foul. But the Heart Attack Grill, is something entirely different and truly disturbing. This place literally looks at people who have no regard for their health and tells them, "come here, Ill help you kill yourself!" And I'm not exaggerating.
The menu has 7 items. The single, double, triple, and quadruple bypass burgers, flat liner fries (fried only in pure lard), jolt cola, and Lucky Strike cigarettes. I'm not making this up. The quadruple bypass, the joints #1 seller, is a 2 pound, 4 patty burger with the buns dipped in lard before grilling, that comes in at 8,000 calories. 8,000 calories!!!! That's the amount of calories that a normal person eats in four days. Wash it down with the highest concentration of sugar and caffeine on the market, and for desert, cigarettes. This goes beyond counterculture and innocent fun.
Now at this point I was already flabbergasted, until the really really sick part came on. At the Heart Attack Grill, if you weigh over 350 pounds, you eat free, for life. The owner of this restaurant is giving free food to keep people obese. In order to fall into a "normal" body mass index range and be 350 pounds, you need to be 8' 4" tall. I hate to tell you, but there isn't anyone in Arizona that tall. This is shameful, disgusting and really really sad. His restaurant is packed every day, and yes, almost everyone in the videos eating in there is overweight.
I wish I was through with the sad news. You would think that the FDA or some advocacy group would be in an uproar over this place that unapologetically, even proudly, wants to kill its patrons. Well you'd be right, but it has nothing to do with the food. The waitresses at this place keep with the heart attack/medical theme by dressing as naughty nurses. Scantily clad nurses take your order which they call a prescription, and even roll you out to your car in a wheelchair when your done. (You cant make this stuff up) So after the 8,000 calories, the Jolt and a pack of smokes, who's pissed off? The Arizona State Board of Nursing. They contend that by using the term "nurse" in this setting, they are sexualizing the profession and discouraging young women from becoming nurses, and therefore contributing to a nursing shortage, and therefore the death of innocent people. Truth be told, they have a very valid point with the whole naughty nurse thing in general, BUT ARE YOU FREAKING KIDDING ME!!! Not one person has stepped forward to say how insane this place is for the food?!?!
Ive rambled on here for way too long, but in closing here's my point. I think I finally see what other people see when they look at a person who overeats like I do. I may not be choking back 8k calories, but the same disgust and pity that a lot of people who see me, a guy who's about 100 pounds too heavy, is the same way I was looking at the people choking down quadruple bypass burgers. Its not a pleasant feeling at all. This more than anything was what left an impression on me today.
Saturday, April 18, 2009
You can't make this stuff up...
Its very interesting to look at the way a person like me views food versus the way "normal" people look at food. Recently Ive come to realize that the way I eat, and I'm not talking about table manners, is very different than the way most people do. I know a lot of people who will look at a big fatty hamburger, or a monster burrito and be turned off by its unhealthy aspects. I usually relish in them. However that view has taken a big hit today (which I think is a good thing) when I came across a little special on the travel channel about best places in America to pig out. (Constantly watching television about food, no I'm not sick, really I'm not.)
Its called the Heart Attack Grill, just South of Phoenix. Its nothing new to desire to carve out a business niche in American counter-culture. Look no further than places like Hooters or Dick's Last Resort, all making money off of being a little contrary to the "status quo" and maybe a little politically incorrect. No harm, no foul. But the Heart Attack Grill, is something entirely different and truly disturbing. This place literally looks at people who have no regard for their health and tells them, "come here, Ill help you kill yourself!" And I'm not exaggerating.
The menu has 7 items. The single, double, triple, and quadruple bypass burgers, flat liner fries (fried only in pure lard), jolt cola, and Lucky Strike cigarettes. I'm not making this up. The quadruple bypass, the joints #1 seller, is a 2 pound, 4 patty burger with the buns dipped in lard before grilling, that comes in at 8,000 calories. 8,000 calories!!!! That's the amount of calories that a normal person eats in four days. Wash it down with the highest concentration of sugar and caffeine on the market, and for desert, cigarettes. This goes beyond counterculture and innocent fun.
Now at this point I was already flabbergasted, until the really really sick part came on. At the Heart Attack Grill, if you weigh over 350 pounds, you eat free, for life. The owner of this restaurant is giving free food to keep people obese. In order to fall into a "normal" body mass index range and be 350 pounds, you need to be 8' 4" tall. I hate to tell you, but there isn't anyone in Arizona that tall. This is shameful, disgusting and really really sad. His restaurant is packed every day, and yes, almost everyone in the videos eating in there is overweight.
I wish I was through with the sad news. You would think that the FDA or some advocacy group would be in an uproar over this place that unapologetically, even proudly, wants to kill its patrons. Well you'd be right, but it has nothing to do with the food. The waitresses at this place keep with the heart attack/medical theme by dressing as naughty nurses. Scantily clad nurses take your order which they call a prescription, and even roll you out to your car in a wheelchair when your done. (You cant make this stuff up) So after the 8,000 calories, the Jolt and a pack of smokes, who's pissed off? The Arizona State Board of Nursing. They contend that by using the term "nurse" in this setting, they are sexualizing the profession and discouraging young women from becoming nurses, and therefore contributing to a nursing shortage, and therefore the death of innocent people. Truth be told, they have a very valid point with the whole naughty nurse thing in general, BUT ARE YOU FREAKING KIDDING ME!!! Not one person has stepped forward to say how insane this place is for the food?!?!
Ive rambled on here for way too long, but in closing here's my point. I think I finally see what other people see when they look at a person who overeats like I do. I may not be choking back 8k calories, but the same disgust and pity that a lot of people who see me, a guy who's about 100 pounds too heavy, is the same way I was looking at the people choking down quadruple bypass burgers. Its not a pleasant feeling at all. This more than anything was what left an impression on me today.
A difficult morning
This morning is turning out to be difficult, and its not even 7:00 am. Several things are present this week that are really fantastic, but its making my head swim in regards to my marathon training. First of all, Im leaving for a vacation to San Diego and then my first trip to Las Vegas. I am so incredibly excited about all of it. I love San Diego, I get to see one of my best friends and I get to see Vegas for the first time. What is worrisome for me is that very little of this is conducive to my training or my weight loss. So begins my stress. San Diego is absolutely beautiful, and a good running city, so luckily Ill be able to get a run in there on Thursday. I am supposed to run on Wednesday as well but will be traveling that day and it doesnt look like the schedule is going to work out so I thought I would just run today instead of tomorrow. Well thats a great plan for everyone except my body who is giving me all of those little signs that say "give me a day off." Normally I would just say, "Ok body, no problem," but I think the added worry of being on vacation, expecting not to be able to really nail my nutrition like I need to and the possibility of missing my long run completely on Saturday has me a worried enough that I want to ignore my body and go for the run anyway. Im also aware that in the course of this long training process that there will be days that I do have to push. Not ignore, not go too far, but just push my levels of comfort, but again, Im conflicted. Is it too soon to push? Is this not one of the situations to push in? These are all the questions and concerns that worry me, but they also excite me at the possibility of learning something new. So, as for the answer, Im going to give my body the rest today, at this point, I think erring on the side of caution is still the best plan. Im going to cut lose and enjoy myself on vacation, but just make the best choices I can while Im there. I have to realize its not the end of the world to miss a day here and there, but that it CANT be a habit, and I cant do it often. Viva Las Vegas!
Saturday, July 11, 2009
Milestones etc
Its been a while since I last posted and quite a lot has happened and is happening. Today officially begins Houston Marathon training for several groups, although my particular group has already been training since May 30th. As far as my personal training goes the biggest change is that I have changed my goal race from Houston Half Marathon to the full Houston Marathon. Its still staggering for me to think of making it to the start line of a full marathon, but with some research and the guidance of a few close friends and coaches, I feel the marathon will be within my grasp. Its not now, and theres a chance I may not make it this year, but I feel like I have the drive and the desire, and at least for now Im lucky enough to be able to devote the proper amount of time needed for training. One of the best things to come from this decision has been some great conversations Ive had with Vic. Conventional wisdom states everything from "you shouldn't train for a marathon until youve been running for a year," to "It takes a year to train for a marathon," and so on, so there is no ONE set rule for it, however I know that technically I am very early in my running life and that marathon training at this stage is a bit "risky." However the good thing is, when thinking about running this marathon, its a running goal, not a 2010 goal. I know that I want to finish a marathon, but more than that, I want to run for the rest of my life, and no marathon, positively or negatively, is going to stand in the way of that for me.
Another milestone Im about to reach is with my weight loss. Im just a breath away from having lost 50 pounds. Its hard to type its so unbelievable to me. Whats even more amazing is that there hasnt been one single day since March 1st (my unnoficial change of life start date) that I have felt like I was on a diet. Through running and a desire to eat in a way that was going to supliment my running, I have had amazing success shedding the pounds. As I tell my friends, there are certain things I deny myself, but only because I know myself (more on that later) enough to know that if I eat these certain things, theres no stopping me. Ive formed great habits that will be with me for life, but I still hold in great fear the power of a basket of chips and salsa, or that plate full of garlic bread more than any boogie man. Im very aware that the more weight I lose, the harder it is going to be to keep up this weight loss, but so far I am keeping a steady pace of losing 10-12 pounds a month. As Vic keeps telling me, "ride it!" Im going to do just that for as long as I can. It will slow down at some point, I just have to make sure that I dont.
My last milestone Im about to face is a little more on the painful side. Many people already know that my sister, brother-in-law and two nephews are moving to Lubbock for my brother-in-law to attend law school. I couldnt be more proud of him or more excited for their family to be moving back to Jill and I's home town and all of the possibilities that it will bring. However, Id be lying if I didnt say my heart gets a little heavier every day that their move gets closer. Watching my two nephews (Jack 2 and a half, and James 1) be born and start to grow up has been one of the greatest joys of my life. Also having my best friend also be my family has really been a blessing as well. All of these things fill me with a sweet sadness, but none of them as much as when I think about not having my sister here with me. I feel like any words I write wont do justice to the bond we have formed over the last few years, and especially over the last two. Our bond was forged out of some great joys and great tragedies, but through them both, I have been the lucky one to have such a caring, honest and passionate friend as Jill. Ive had a sister since I was 3, but in the past couple years I've realized exactly how special that is. I love you Jill more than you could know, and as much as Im going to miss you, I know that our friendship will always be close.
I couldnt be more excited for what the rest of the summer and year have to bring, especially that first cool weather run sometime this fall.
Another milestone Im about to reach is with my weight loss. Im just a breath away from having lost 50 pounds. Its hard to type its so unbelievable to me. Whats even more amazing is that there hasnt been one single day since March 1st (my unnoficial change of life start date) that I have felt like I was on a diet. Through running and a desire to eat in a way that was going to supliment my running, I have had amazing success shedding the pounds. As I tell my friends, there are certain things I deny myself, but only because I know myself (more on that later) enough to know that if I eat these certain things, theres no stopping me. Ive formed great habits that will be with me for life, but I still hold in great fear the power of a basket of chips and salsa, or that plate full of garlic bread more than any boogie man. Im very aware that the more weight I lose, the harder it is going to be to keep up this weight loss, but so far I am keeping a steady pace of losing 10-12 pounds a month. As Vic keeps telling me, "ride it!" Im going to do just that for as long as I can. It will slow down at some point, I just have to make sure that I dont.
My last milestone Im about to face is a little more on the painful side. Many people already know that my sister, brother-in-law and two nephews are moving to Lubbock for my brother-in-law to attend law school. I couldnt be more proud of him or more excited for their family to be moving back to Jill and I's home town and all of the possibilities that it will bring. However, Id be lying if I didnt say my heart gets a little heavier every day that their move gets closer. Watching my two nephews (Jack 2 and a half, and James 1) be born and start to grow up has been one of the greatest joys of my life. Also having my best friend also be my family has really been a blessing as well. All of these things fill me with a sweet sadness, but none of them as much as when I think about not having my sister here with me. I feel like any words I write wont do justice to the bond we have formed over the last few years, and especially over the last two. Our bond was forged out of some great joys and great tragedies, but through them both, I have been the lucky one to have such a caring, honest and passionate friend as Jill. Ive had a sister since I was 3, but in the past couple years I've realized exactly how special that is. I love you Jill more than you could know, and as much as Im going to miss you, I know that our friendship will always be close.
I couldnt be more excited for what the rest of the summer and year have to bring, especially that first cool weather run sometime this fall.
Saturday, June 6, 2009
Feeling Good
Today I finished my 3rd 5k race in just over a month, but today's was a little unique for me in that, except for the first mile, I ran the whole thing by myself. Now it may only be 3.1 miles, but without talking to anyone, I had the opportunity to talk and really listen to myself. Luckily I kept the dialogue internal as not to worry the onlookers, some of which were my wonderful friends and family. There wasn't too much to report on this race, it was fairly straight forward, and I felt great. I was able to better my 5k time by almost 2 minutes, a tribute to how much easier running without hills is. The best thing I took from today is that I really do feel like a runner. Every race is a big deal, especially one with a new PR, but where as my first race and even my second were sort of monumental events, I'm getting the impression that they are becoming more routine, and that's a good thing. As I said I have wonderful friends and family that cheer me on and support me as I am still at the beginning of a very long road to a healthier life, but I'm starting to feel as though running and succeeding at running IS becoming my lifestyle, and not the anomaly that it was a few short months ago. I don't know if I'm communicating well how I feel, but I feel good. I'm feeling healthier and stronger than I have in a long time, and although I know up and down days are ahead, I'm optimistic and excited.
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Nobody Will Understand This
Starting tomorrow I'm faced with a difficulty that most everyone I know wishes they could have. Tomorrow officially starts my summer vacation. Until the beginning of August I don't have to work, save a 3 week summer school session for a couple hours a day. Its this chunk of vacation that usually sends eyes rolling and sarcastic comments flowing whenever I describe my job as a teacher as difficult. Then I get defensive and start detailing my job blah blah blah. That's not what this is about. What this is about is the question: Why would anyone else I know be basking in the glow of two months paid vacation, and I'm looking at it with worry?
As Ive become more self aware, Ive realized one of my biggest enemies is idle time. Don't get me wrong, I'm taking off time over work time faster than anyone you know, but the prospect of two months off feels more like retirement to me than vacation. I need things in my life to occupy my brain so my brain doesn't start looking for entertainment in the places its always looked for it before, namely food and all around misery. Ive been rather successful as of late, running, self reflection, work, the "stress" of the end of a school year has kept me sufficiently busy in my waking hours, but a large part of that is going away.
I'm completely pumped about my marathon training and continuing to loose weight, but I can only do that for so long each day. Even if I stretch it out to a couple hours a day, its still only a couple hours a day. I guess my worry comes from wondering how I will fill the other hours, and I would be lying if I said I wasn't a little scared of falling into old habits.
But lemons into lemonade is sort of my new thing, so I'm going to try to be optimistic about actually having to make myself busy/happy/fulfilled without a built in system. And maybe that's the whole key to this. Ive been a master my whole life of looking to "things" to be my savior, to "fix" me, rather than choosing to do it consciously myself. So even though I approach summer with some apprehension, maybe Ill find that I do like having 2 months off as much as everyone else. Or maybe I'm just crazy.
As Ive become more self aware, Ive realized one of my biggest enemies is idle time. Don't get me wrong, I'm taking off time over work time faster than anyone you know, but the prospect of two months off feels more like retirement to me than vacation. I need things in my life to occupy my brain so my brain doesn't start looking for entertainment in the places its always looked for it before, namely food and all around misery. Ive been rather successful as of late, running, self reflection, work, the "stress" of the end of a school year has kept me sufficiently busy in my waking hours, but a large part of that is going away.
I'm completely pumped about my marathon training and continuing to loose weight, but I can only do that for so long each day. Even if I stretch it out to a couple hours a day, its still only a couple hours a day. I guess my worry comes from wondering how I will fill the other hours, and I would be lying if I said I wasn't a little scared of falling into old habits.
But lemons into lemonade is sort of my new thing, so I'm going to try to be optimistic about actually having to make myself busy/happy/fulfilled without a built in system. And maybe that's the whole key to this. Ive been a master my whole life of looking to "things" to be my savior, to "fix" me, rather than choosing to do it consciously myself. So even though I approach summer with some apprehension, maybe Ill find that I do like having 2 months off as much as everyone else. Or maybe I'm just crazy.
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Race for the Pennant
Since I dont have but a couple races under my belt, I figured it was still worth giving a race report, especially sinc this one had some good moments.
This morning my sister Jill and I ran in the Astro's Race for the Pennant 5k that started at Minute Maid Park. We were both surprised by the number of people that were running this race, TONS more than the 5k we ran in just 4 weeks ago. The start gave me my first taste of what a big race is kind of like. Lots of people running/walking at different paces and navigating them was a bit tricky, and I noticed that more than anything it sort of made me run faster. After a bit of bobbing and weaving, we settled in a bit to begin the rolling "hills" of the Elysian Viaduct.
By mile 1 we were feeling pretty good having tackled the first hill or two without much of a slow down, and it was here that we started to see the leaders coming back. What was shocking to Jill and I were the 9 and 10 year old kids that were running at about a 6 minute mile pace. I guess they could have jumped over the median, but they looked like they had been running it all.
As we made the turn to come back I looked at my watch and saw that we were well on pace to finish by my goal which was under 40 minutes. I also knew that the hardest running was yet to come. Right at the turn around was an uphill that Ill admit was not easy. We were getting hot and the sun was beating down, but we were still pretty much on pace.
Right after mile 2 was where things got...interesting. Making a little turn we could see Minute Maid Park. "There it is." I say, but what is funny here is that its hard to remember that a structure the size of a ballpark can still be waaaay in the distance and look like its just right there. The last (and longest) hill was coming up and both Jill and I were getting tired, but still sticking close to that 12:30 pace we had been running all along. Just as we crest the last hill we can see the entire road leading us straight into Minute Maid, Im huffing and huffing, but Im boosted by the fact that we are on a straight road to the finish, so I thought.
About 1/2 a mile from the park, the course took a right turn, Im assuming to add that pesky .1 miles to the end of the 5k. At this point I literally said to Jill "Im not gonna lie, that dampens my spirit a little bit." At this point Jill starts doing everything she can to keep me optomistic, singing to me, trying to immitate my "power song," anything, but I just need to run.
I look at my watch and see that we are at about 36 minutes with about a 1/3 of a mile to go and I know that it is going to be tight. We have run really hard and we are both really hurting at this point when I hear in the distance a familiar voice. I look across a vacant lot, and theres Vic cheering on all the runners as they pass by. I tell Jill, "there's Vic!," and for some reason Jill decides to take off to get us to him. I literally tell her, "Jill, I knew he would be here, we dont need to sprint to see Vic!" But as we turned the final corner towards the finish Vic is cheering for us at the top of his lungs, and he brought Anna from PIM to cheer for us too. For whatever reason, his cheers worked, I found some sort of new gear that I didnt know I had and I started running, like really running. As we pass Vic and Anna I hear Vic yelling still and he even says "Will, wait for us!" as he realizes Im almost at a dead sprint he says, "never mind, KEEP GOING!" This new gear I found was amazing, and frankly I dont know how I would have finished if Vic hadnt been there to push us the last little bit.
So as we pass up the mile 3 marker and can see the entrance we run through to enter the field and cross the finish, we see "THE RAMP." The ramp leading down to the field, we had been warned several times was extremely steep. I had pictures the whole race of a trecherous slope that had to be carefully navigated, but when I got to it, it didnt look so scary. Enough so that I said, "Screw it, Im running down this." Jill did not however know my thoughts and as I started barreling down this ramp she literally puts her hand across my chest in her best "mommy keeping kid from falling" move but I "knew" what I was doing.
In the final tunnel and the last 40 yards or so we could see the official clock over the finish tick 39:59....40:00. I was instantly deflated until Jill yells, "its the start clock, not our time!!" So with the last energy we had we burst over the finish and I stop my watch, at 39:11. Goal accomplished.
It was such a great run, nice weather, well organized, and I got a PR to boot. Four weeks ago to the day I ran my first 5k in 44:33, so in just a month I shaved 5 min and 22 seconds off my time. My favorite thing Jill said was, "I wonder what you could do with no hills and no lower respiratory infection." I guess we will find out next week :)
This morning my sister Jill and I ran in the Astro's Race for the Pennant 5k that started at Minute Maid Park. We were both surprised by the number of people that were running this race, TONS more than the 5k we ran in just 4 weeks ago. The start gave me my first taste of what a big race is kind of like. Lots of people running/walking at different paces and navigating them was a bit tricky, and I noticed that more than anything it sort of made me run faster. After a bit of bobbing and weaving, we settled in a bit to begin the rolling "hills" of the Elysian Viaduct.
By mile 1 we were feeling pretty good having tackled the first hill or two without much of a slow down, and it was here that we started to see the leaders coming back. What was shocking to Jill and I were the 9 and 10 year old kids that were running at about a 6 minute mile pace. I guess they could have jumped over the median, but they looked like they had been running it all.
As we made the turn to come back I looked at my watch and saw that we were well on pace to finish by my goal which was under 40 minutes. I also knew that the hardest running was yet to come. Right at the turn around was an uphill that Ill admit was not easy. We were getting hot and the sun was beating down, but we were still pretty much on pace.
Right after mile 2 was where things got...interesting. Making a little turn we could see Minute Maid Park. "There it is." I say, but what is funny here is that its hard to remember that a structure the size of a ballpark can still be waaaay in the distance and look like its just right there. The last (and longest) hill was coming up and both Jill and I were getting tired, but still sticking close to that 12:30 pace we had been running all along. Just as we crest the last hill we can see the entire road leading us straight into Minute Maid, Im huffing and huffing, but Im boosted by the fact that we are on a straight road to the finish, so I thought.
About 1/2 a mile from the park, the course took a right turn, Im assuming to add that pesky .1 miles to the end of the 5k. At this point I literally said to Jill "Im not gonna lie, that dampens my spirit a little bit." At this point Jill starts doing everything she can to keep me optomistic, singing to me, trying to immitate my "power song," anything, but I just need to run.
I look at my watch and see that we are at about 36 minutes with about a 1/3 of a mile to go and I know that it is going to be tight. We have run really hard and we are both really hurting at this point when I hear in the distance a familiar voice. I look across a vacant lot, and theres Vic cheering on all the runners as they pass by. I tell Jill, "there's Vic!," and for some reason Jill decides to take off to get us to him. I literally tell her, "Jill, I knew he would be here, we dont need to sprint to see Vic!" But as we turned the final corner towards the finish Vic is cheering for us at the top of his lungs, and he brought Anna from PIM to cheer for us too. For whatever reason, his cheers worked, I found some sort of new gear that I didnt know I had and I started running, like really running. As we pass Vic and Anna I hear Vic yelling still and he even says "Will, wait for us!" as he realizes Im almost at a dead sprint he says, "never mind, KEEP GOING!" This new gear I found was amazing, and frankly I dont know how I would have finished if Vic hadnt been there to push us the last little bit.
So as we pass up the mile 3 marker and can see the entrance we run through to enter the field and cross the finish, we see "THE RAMP." The ramp leading down to the field, we had been warned several times was extremely steep. I had pictures the whole race of a trecherous slope that had to be carefully navigated, but when I got to it, it didnt look so scary. Enough so that I said, "Screw it, Im running down this." Jill did not however know my thoughts and as I started barreling down this ramp she literally puts her hand across my chest in her best "mommy keeping kid from falling" move but I "knew" what I was doing.
In the final tunnel and the last 40 yards or so we could see the official clock over the finish tick 39:59....40:00. I was instantly deflated until Jill yells, "its the start clock, not our time!!" So with the last energy we had we burst over the finish and I stop my watch, at 39:11. Goal accomplished.
It was such a great run, nice weather, well organized, and I got a PR to boot. Four weeks ago to the day I ran my first 5k in 44:33, so in just a month I shaved 5 min and 22 seconds off my time. My favorite thing Jill said was, "I wonder what you could do with no hills and no lower respiratory infection." I guess we will find out next week :)
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Goals
As my half marathon training officially starts this Saturday, I thought it would be good to set some goals, short and long term, to lead me through the next seven months.
Short Term:
-Run the Astro's Race for the Pennant 5k on May 30th without stopping and at least a little bit faster than my first 5k.
-Run the Heights Fun Run 5k sub 40 min
Mid-Long Term:
- DON'T GET INJURED!!
- Stick consistently to the In Flight Training program, especially the cross training and weight lifting, not just the running
- Run all of the Race of the Month Series races
- Finish the Aramco Houston Half Marathon
- Cross the start line of the half marathon 50 pounds lighter than I cross the start line of the Heights 5k
Some goals may be added or modified, but this is what I'm starting with.
Short Term:
-Run the Astro's Race for the Pennant 5k on May 30th without stopping and at least a little bit faster than my first 5k.
-Run the Heights Fun Run 5k sub 40 min
Mid-Long Term:
- DON'T GET INJURED!!
- Stick consistently to the In Flight Training program, especially the cross training and weight lifting, not just the running
- Run all of the Race of the Month Series races
- Finish the Aramco Houston Half Marathon
- Cross the start line of the half marathon 50 pounds lighter than I cross the start line of the Heights 5k
Some goals may be added or modified, but this is what I'm starting with.
Monday, May 25, 2009
Feeling Like Crap
I felt like crap all day. I was convinced for a moment or two that I had caught West Nile Virus from one of the over 80 (yes I counted as much as I could) mosquito bites I got sitting in a friend's back yard a couple nights ago. This would be the same back yard where I ate too much and made myself feel like crap mentally. Maybe his back yard is a bad place for me :) I basically spent most of my Memorial Day in a Benadryl induced fog and am feeling a little better now. I was really hoping to have a good run today in preparation for my race on Saturday, but alas I had to walk almost all of my 3 miles this morning. My knees have also been really sore since my long run on Saturday so an extra day of rest probably is good for them as well. Ill be kicking my but on Wednesday for my final pre-race run, then the 5k on Saturday with Jill. After that, its a whole new animal, training for the half marathon. I still cant believe Im going to do it, but Im terribly excited.
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Is this good or...?
See, fat people find comfort in shared misery. Me and my other two fat friends would get together and laugh jovially as we scarfed down any combinations we could find of bacon, sausage, gravy, bread,...the list goes on. But more importantly than eating all this, was sitting around talking about how great it was that we ate it. There is this shared pride in "look how fat I can be, I bet I can eat more of this fried gravy than you can!" (And yes, I literally have eaten deep fried gravy at one of these gatherings) Well, I hadn't been to one of these get togethers in some time, and certainly not since I had adopted what I don't feel I'm out of place in calling a healthy lifestyle. One of my partners in crime had also adopted healthier habits, and dropped quite a bit of weight, but for some reason all this went away last night. There is almost an unspoken reward amongst my friends for who can bring or consume the most heinous concoction of food and alcohol. My feeble attempt was bringing a 40 oz. bottle of Old English, trying to look my best fat white boy gangsta. My effort was thwarted several times over. First by a 50 inch peperoni pizza that was literally delivered in the bed of a truck, and lastly by BACON ICE CREAM. I had seen it on Iron Chef, I knew it existed, but here I was at 11:30 on a Saturday night, actually eating it. "Why are you doing this?" kept running over and over and over in my head. I was summarily flying in the face of all the good choices and healthy habits I had developed over the past couple of months, and I even knew it, but I kept going. Call it a slip up, call it peer pressure, call it whatever you want, it didn't feel good, and it doesn't feel good this morning. But... What I am taking as good from it, is the fact that feeling this bad about what I did, IS a good thing. In the past, I would wake up this morning with a smile..."I just ate bacon ice cream... how cool is that?" But not today. Ive spent my morning trying to think of ways to make up for my night, and I have NO desire to repeat last night. What this does tell me is that I do have to prepare for every situation, because if I'm given the chance to overeat and "fall off the wagon," I'm gonna do it.
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